No cca these days! kind of sad. and happy. cos I can finally study properly. Midyears are in one and half weeks! Quite screwed actually. Today we just got back our bio paper and yufei got highest again. I just passed. Kind of expected because I was really feeling wonky and out of sorts after SYF that day. So. Yeah. and I realised that my practicals are actually quite lousy. need to improve on that.

Today adelle and yangjie gave me and sipei a present. haha. Im super touched! Thanks juniors, continue to work hard and dont let us down!=D I was presently surprised when I saw that heartshaped box with my name on it haha.

okay shant waste anymore time. i need to mug for midyears. must not regret. byebye!

feeling quite surreal now. haha. mixture of both relief and joy. we did it. we actually pulled it off. thank you everyone, for putting in the best that you could! though we didnt play our best on stage, remember all the effort that we have put in over the last nine months! =D

and congrats to all other schools too, especially VJC and RISE. mr sze should be very proud.


jiayou juniors! now the baton has been passed over to you. rise up to the occasion okay=D and to edwyna and shirlynn- you guys are the greatest juniors we could ever have. cant believe its going to be over soon. jiayou and learn life in the ensemble without me and sipei! become seniors already haha. lead the juniors and do us proud=D

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JIAYOU PEOPLE! dont want to say much, but we've work so hard for tomorrow. rest well and prepare to enjoy the moment on stage! 13 more hours. im feeling nervous already. and still have to study for bio test!=/

JIAYOU NYSE WE CAN DO IT!! =D

Today's practice was one of the most enjoyable, fufilling, exciting rehearsal I've had (in my own opinion) for a long time! We started of with sectionals with the cellos, and we helped them in some areas till Mr Sze came and shooed us out cos he said we were slacking=/ haha. so we went out and started complaining about our blisters and how pain they were when he suddenly popped his head out of the M4ST2 window (we were outside near the shoe rack) and said "so this is what you guys talk about during sectionals!" haha we all got a shock. and Mr Sze talked to us. quite a shocking relevation, but it was a really informative talk. and somehow we ended up talk about shirlynn when Mrs Ho came. haha. and talked about orchestra auditions and how movement and facial expressions can affect the playing. so for that particular passage the three of us (shirlynn had a fever) tried to be expressive and started laughing at each other. edwyna doesnt even move at all! then we went back into M404 and Mr Sze gave everyone a 'so-called' motivational talk. haha. ahd we went through the programme.

after the programme I couldnt stop smiling for some weird reason. I have no idea why, but I could feel THE syf spirit! the one that we had the last time, whenever we played reineke and chavarri. THAT feeling. sipei and edwyna felt it too. I was really happy. During 2C2 and 2D we were super intense. I really liked the feeling alot! Finally, I feel that we have some hope!=D

On a personal level, all four fingers of my left hand that is used to press on the string are all peeling! haha this hasnt happened for a long time. shows that I did alot of practice this morning, Mr Sze! haha. oh man today was such a great day. Cant wait for the next rehearsal. wonder if anyone else other than the three of us felt it. mich said she was just super confused for one of the pieces. haha.


anyway. chem ws. bio TYS. chinese zuowen. practice fugue and mozart. practice maureen's piece. finish SS assignment. study for SS test. finish geog assignment. math due on tuesday. and im going to sao mu tmr morning. great. jiayou jiayou another crazy weekend! xD

Late nights make me think. All the peace and quietness of everything.

was just looking through photos. looking at all our faces, so happy, so enthusiastic and eager. makes me feel really warm and happy. it all seems so far away now. where has all of that gone to? now all left, is an empty shell. but empty shells are okay, you know, as long as we fill that shell again with passion and energy.

why? why the change? when we first started we were full of fire and roaring to go. now, after seeing the ugly side of so many things, should they affect our feelings? would you be able to say confidently, that you have not regretted your decision back then?

even if you are most unwilling, do it. do it, not for your sake, but for the others. the people who are still hanging there trying to make a positive difference. dont let them down. its just not fair.



dont go down the same path as us okay, encourage each other and hang on! its only the beginning, there's still a long way to go. remember your first aspirations. dreams. latch onto it and not let go. make a difference. retain the passion. let it continue burning. tough, but fruitful and fufilling. jiayou=D

Recently I realised that I've been in quite a good mood and feeling very lighthearted. Actually I shouldnt, because midyears are just around the corner (5 weeks!) and with all the SYF and council things coming, this is just about the most stressful time. Yet somehow Im able to stay happy and positive.

Why?

Perhaps it's because I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired! In sec 3, life was just about doing work, feeling sorry for myself and basically being down in the dumps and walking around like everyone in the world owes me something. Now, take things as they come. Not that Im not going to care about them, its just that there's no point getting so upset and anxious. Doesnt help at all. Instead of gloomy faces, why not smile and spread it around?

Maybe this is why I get quite irritated these days when people start whining or crying or walking around with a zombified face. I've gotten past this stage already, and now when I look back, it all seems kind of pointless and silly. haha.

STILL, I am still stressed. but in a positive way!
SYF is in 18 days. Not sure what to say at this point of time, just that the morale has been really low, sorry if its because of me and my unkind words, but I hope you guys know that its for the good of the ensemble! anyway I will try to shut up more to prevent myself from upsetting more people. Sorry Shirlynn for yelling at you! Sometimes I must learn how to be nicer. though someone says I am as fierce as a waterbottle. hmphh.
Why do I want GWH? Not for myself, not exactly for the glory of it, but more for the seniors. We worked so hard the previous time to bring NYSE from such a horrible standard up to a champion's standard. When we were nothing and everyone looked down on us, we worked our way up and proved them wrong. If this standard were to drop, I'm sure that the seniors who workedso hard will be very disappointed. I would if I were them. So lets jiayou people, make this one another good one.=D

However I would love SYF to be over really soon so that I can start fully revising for Midyears! 5 weeks away! seems like alot, but when you have 9 subjects and tons of chapters, there's no time. Im most worried about my physics math and chem. and hmp too cos I have to accompany Maureen. and my Fugue isnt really ready. I need to do well for this exam dammit! must studystudystudy as much as I can. I really wonder how yufei does it. She has an extremely high level of discipline. Not watching tv, not wasting time, but doing homework every second. Though I keep teasing her, how I wish I have this discipline. haha. yufei you are very pro!=D

Thoughts flow into my mind and drift away. Now my mind is blank. But Im not very tired. haha. though its 3.44 am now. must be due to that cup of coffee i drank at midnight. hope vicki's card turns out well.=D

announcement duty tmr! math test on wed! geog assignment tuesday! hmp assignment before friday! yay. lets welcome the new week with open arms. =D